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2002-12-27
well besides the much un needed awkwardness and bad situations that were put upon everyone tonight, i must say that i had quite an enjoyable time. sometimes i feel like a loser because i know i'm not funny but i keep talking anyways. atleast some people like to humor me in the thought that maybe i can offer a somewhat satisfying giggle? who knows. i also feel a little uneasy when i'm the only one sitting around and having a nice time. i mean, when i'm in the company of other people and we are just sitting around not really doing anything, i'm happily content most of the time. i just hate when i feel like i have to think of things to do for people to be happy. but! tonight i got to play ddr like a million times. and that was fun. and jessie and i shook our groove things to missy elliot. she knows some of the words, it amazed me. i tried to be cool too, but of course my words just didn't match up with the amazing flow.

also watched donnie darko and got a lot of knitting done. i forgot how wonderful that movie was. hung out with 2 new kids the whole night. paul and autumn. lovely people. hope they don't hate on me and my friends. we aren't really that lame all of the time. (i'm lying).

people should know not to drink and then come near me. especially under certain circumstances that just make it that much more awkward. i don't enjoy feeling like a bad person. it isn't one of my "happy things".