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2005-11-30
Who knows how many years i've been claiming that writing is my passion. I want to say it's the truth, but if it was- how could I go by weeks and months without doing any of it? I need to get back into a routine.

Here is the beginning of a hopeful routine:

1:45 PM
It's weird when things that you've been wishing for all of your life finally happen. Where do you go from there? Taylor's been dreaming of doing music, living through music, breathing music, since I've met him and now people actually want to put out his record? They want to share it with as many people as they can? It's amazing. When he found out, I really don't think I've seen him that excited. He just knows how to make things happen for himself. I am so proud of him.

I can't believe tomorrow marks day one of the last month of 2005. What do I have to say for myself in this past year? I lived, sure. But I didn't do anything extreme. All I seem to be doing is making plans for the future. But let me just say, that the future looks good.

I'm forgetting how to connect paragraphs.

Thanksgiving was such a blessing. I get scared for my Mom when I think of the holidays. Her first December alone, I know it's going to be rough. For Thanksgiving, Taylors' family invited us to spend it with them. We went around in a circle and said what we were thankful for. I really meant it. I hope that she had a good time. I hope December is good to her.

December for me? Working. I now have 2 jobs so that I can save up money for this busy month. I will be working 55ish hours a week. I believe, as of right now, I have one full day off from work. On that one day, I will collapse. After December? I hope to finally quit Blockbuster all together. I'm just not feeling it anymore. I'm certainly not feeling all of the bitter people getting mad at me for their DVD's being scratched. Get a better life. Go drink some hot chocolate.

Goals for this week:
stay alive